31 05. We had a silent jouney of mixed emotions.
Of whispering voices we could hear everything.
Today. 28 01. We took the same journey.
But of these words we hear nothing.
Of these words nothing surfaced.
I could see the tears well up in your eyes.
But of this time they were of different value.
I couldnt quite make out what I saw today.
But it was those little words that tore through my heart.
Words that need not be spoken and yet be heard ever so clearly.
Words that sent a wave of emotions upon me.
Words that engulfed me in the depths of hell.
And to think that I have prepared so much for this very day,
seems as though they were all futile.
It seems as if this was where we were headed at the very beginning.
How many times have I convinced myself to lighten my grip.
How many times have I constantly reminded myself to let it all go.
And as each word seems to be a piercing bullet into my heart.
I somehow found the courage to stand unwavered before your eyes.
Before those eyes of tears and sorrow.
I had to. I told myself.
I cannot let her see me like this.
But as she spoke the words that I have prepared myself very much for,
I could feel the tears well up in my eyes.
I knew that I couldnt not stand unwavered after all.
2206. She left with a final goodbye.
A place that once brought much pleasant memories,
now brings such painful regret.
A place that once brought much joy and laughters,
now stands amidst a lonesome silhouette.
At that moment I could not find the courage to stand up to it again.
But I must remember? I have heard the same words over and over.
As we gave our final hug, my heart broke once more.
Goodbye was all I heard. Goodbye to all those memories.
Goodbye to the hands that are going to part.
Goodbye to the once, happiest moments.
Goodbye, to someone who once meant everything to you.
Goodbye, to everything.
