I will wait, i definitely will

Have my times in these years been spent in vain?
These monotonous moments i dragged through only to await your return.
And through these waitings, of what value have i gained?
Nothing i thought except for the pain of feeling distant.

I have longed just so much for you,
With eaching passing time i dreamt you came back.
Though these times i spent in solitude heart-broken yet hopeful,
I never gave up cos pessimism was what i lack.

Will an utopian life ever be possible in reality?
To seek perfection in me was what i strived for.
To be a prince-charming to you was what i wanted to be,
and yet through you i experienced the hardest of my falls.

Believe me please when i said for you i will wait,
as your refusal to trust would cripple me completely.
Let me be the one in your heart even when im dead,
for you will be in mine endlessly.

I will lock you tight in my memories, never letting go.
Cos you are the sole reason to think about my past.
And as every year passed my tears gathered threatening to overflow,
I will hold on to the promise i made to see you for the very last time i must.

And for those loneliness i went through in hope of seeing you once again,
sadly only being able to see an illusion of you and me.
Feeling deceived and yet wishing for the sky to just rain,
washing away my unfulfilled promises to set myself free.