-for you

I can't shed the tears, because it'll be too painful to.
I can't shut my eyes, cos then that's where I'll see you.
I can't grieve nor smile cos my heart stabs everytime I do.
I can't forget nor remember cos these memories reminds me of you.

It reminded me of how a wound that stabs and aches.
It reminded me of a heart that beats and hurts.
I'll fall for you, oh yes I will..
I'll stumble upon a meaningless tale.

I'd smile for you,
yet beneath it lives a crestfallen sorrow.
I'll sparkle with my eyes,
though behind those eyes are tears that flow.

Wondered why there's tears sometimes that words cannot express.
More complex than any word can ever describe.
Within me cries a soul that couldn't free itself.
On the outside shows a self that laughs a lifetime of wealth.

A light that shines a moment then flicker out the next.
The darkness that overwhelms the day awaits
until the hands of time stops ticking.
And then we'll fade into the night, with your body in my keeping.

Spoke of verses that held no meanings.
Cried a river upon the endless greens.
Watched a moon that waxed and waned,
to seek a moment that heals all the pain.

Life

-Life

At times, don't you feel, that a straight path is set in your life.
We have been going on, on and on for so long.
Studying, working, loving, isn't that Life?
Maybe so, but I think it is likely that we are all wrong.
I see life with so many distractions..
Life, heading to only one direction.
And the end of where we are heading, is a dead end.
We cannot turn back,and yet unable to also surge forward, that's then,
we know for sure, that's the end. That's where it all ends.
I wondered about the lives where the earliest people surfaced.
Without work, without knowing what was love, without books.
Is life's true meaning really in this way?
That we are ignorant to everything,
with only a know how that ends beneath the ground.
And what form were we before this being ?
Merely souls? The purest within one's self?
We can listen now, to the gentle whispers of hope.
Speak with words of the faintest meanings.
But we can never hide the fact that we are still in our deepest slumber.
Always determined to accomplish something,
without ever knowing what that accomplishment really is for..
We can have so many distractions in life, always telling ourselves that that's the aim of our lives.
But will never really understand truely, where in life we are actually heading for.
And that's that. That's life. You know, that We know nothing about Life.
We know nothing about this never-ending path,
even after death. We would still know nothing about it.
Even after death, we cannot say that that's where we would live happily ever after..