221209

-221209

Emptiness in my heart,
and there we choose a path of no regret.
If that's where it all starts,
then why has it been my greatest upset.

Pride or joy, we choose the greater devil.
While we balance between self or the other,
we are mocked by our very own endeavours.
This time it's truely now or never.

Stained across the eyes of our hearts.
It stands blinded of the clearer light.
As our little hands chooses to part,
it's sad we let it go without a fight.

Keep running to the end where the road is neverending.
You might find a way back to bliss someday.
The fact that you find this most appalling,
we should have never taken this way.

A yacht we built to scour the seas,
seems to distant away from the shore.
Yet there's not a soul up here with me,
only a broken heart in which you tore.

Fallen twigs they speak a sad song.
Humming birds they seem to laugh,
at the little things that have all been gone,
at the "happiest" memories that have taken its path,
at the hands that have chosen to part.

Sweetest Heart

-Sweestest Heart

Voices of beautiful songs.
Colours of prettiest blues.
Unforgettable moments. and lasting memories.
How can I forget the slightest of meetings?

Shared me the ears of saddest times.
Gave me hearts amidst the darkness.
I am but noone without you.
Gave me wings when I am down.

Now I am in search of times of age with you.
Where we grow to old, hand in hand.
I could take you away,
only in you, I find my faded paradise.

In search of heavens, when I am in place.
How ironic that the heart speak of someone,
and yet hurts them the most.
I am full of much regret to have led those tears.

Of beautiful skies, I dream to watch with you.
Forgive me. I am but only human.
With tinkling stars, and the city lights.
I can only be contented.

Crossed our fingers, we walk the path of no return.
Will you give it your everything?
As the tallest trees, they stand as our strengths,
Ill take your hand and guide you through,
This road of tears and laughters. :)

Heartbreak

-Heartbreak

2230. A hole punctured - so perfectly - into my heart.
As if it was always there - ever concealed.
Only to be noticed upon close scrutiny.

And as yet the times of bliss piles up upon this irreversible scar,
never will it be entirely healed.
As while the closest of times we speak the happiest of moments,
the saddest of heartbreaks reigns through it all.

How often it is that the greatest comfort lies in one's imaginations?
That our rise and falls, come not in reality.
Saints as we may seem,
our expectations of others do fall short.

All our lives we chase a light that may have never been there.
such emptiness, such inadequacy.
It is hard to satiate our desires.
As our desires may only be elusive.

Set upon this heart of fire,
I may choose to walk the stones of hell.
Burning feet. Burning pain -
May already be the lesser of the two evils.

Actors

-Actors

As we are all laid upon this path,
shaken by uncertainty,
we sometimes seek recluse when we have it rough.
Solitude, as it is, is life's greatest subtlety.

We may appear as pillars of stengths,
solidified and often infallible.
But as we stand before intimidations,
how many of us stand unwavered?

Across the garden of eden,
we are set to pick the fruits of salvation.
Do we leave it to choice or by chance,
or succumb to the expectations of others?

Of these rows of flowers,
we select the highest of quality.
As it all seems to be almost perfect,
it is sad that we fall for such trickery.

Disguises are sometimes deadly,
Appearances often deceiving.
Faced by the lesser of two evils,
so hard it is to resist temptation.

Stranded by the greatest of man,
how long before eternity?
Even love, the greatest of emotions,
can forsake us through the hardest of times.
What say of our certainties?

Departure

-Departure

In time when we have realised our priorities,
we may have failed it all.
Enslaved by these weeks of solitary,
my heart spoke the words of immense flaw.

If I could have another day with you,
we would walk the beds of blue roses,
stroll the beaches of blue,
and parade through the sweetest of moments.

While we may speak of all those joy and laughters,
deep down inside there's so much longings.
And with each longing in time that passes thereafter,
hides a tear beneath those kissings.

Stranded between these hands of subtlety,
it's you I choose.
If time could freeze such memories.
im sure i'd take more with you.

Hold me now, you may never know if its the last.
My smell, my voice, my warmth.
Let those be of a futuristic past,
cos if you leave them here now, they will be all gone.

Trials

-Trials

Frustrations we vent, but to whom?
Cycles of trials we may stream above.
But with who ? but to who..
but with blue it may be, my love.

If I would speak of those words now,
it may be almost futile.
if we can let it fade away somehow,
What that took years may take just a while.

How funny it seems that our roads divide,
and then they converge.
Our thoughts they coincide,
and then they divert.

While the walls of division may be set upon us,
Tough as it may be we must not falter.
This, as it is, we shall pass,
a facet of unseen lustre.

If moments like these cease to exist,
then there's no test of faith.
beamed beyond this array of blues,
how much of these memories can we save?

Star gazers, as we are, we wait a thousand years,
only to chance upon a shooting star.
and through time and distances - the least of our fears
we'll stand unwavered in our paths.
This time, no walls, no separation
will do us part.

Incomplete

-Incomplete

Twigs and leaves, we bury what's beneath.
Of old stones we pick our mines.
Have we forgotten our very own beliefs?
Impaired and such between these lines.

We've been led through this deserted path -
a road that transcends logic and emotion.
This is a place where joy was never enough.
This.. is a beginning of our personal satisfaction.

How often do we laugh as we cry.
How many times do we lie in our lies.
Today our journey lit,
its end lavished with laughters.

But tomorrow there's no promises.
Almost without reason.
As we lay here above all consequences,
our life splashed before us.

Where it all begins, this is where it ends.
Of a choice we seek yet come no answers.
A relationship of more than just friends..
If we could forsake it now there's still chance.

We may have draped our hearts with love.
We may have covered our lives with love.
But have we prepared enough for this?
Have we been of mere impulsion?

After

-After

Such words they show no mercy,
more than the eyes, more than it already is.
We may choose to cross our paths,
or we can stray away from all this.

Faster than sound, faster than light.
Suffocated by arms of what we do not feel.
Take my hand, run with me to greater heights.
Can you feel what's real?

I may be piecing together these broken shards,
but with you in my hand, im not afraid.
Words - so limited - cannot define greatness,
but i'll stand by you if I may..

Silence as we speak of others.
Silence as we have our first dance.
From this moment on..
From this very one.
Silence has its answers.

So hard it is to bring forth these words.
So hard it is then to take it all back now.
And the thing is, it is truely the first.
No cries. No pretense. No fouls.

Having it more perfect than it already is,
I couldnt ask for more.
Having been often in search of bliss,
I may already have it all..

Friend

-Friend

I have a friend that doesnt wanna say goodbye to you.
Where rucks and mauls were all you ever asked.
But today it seems you broke whatever that was once true,
and turned them all into dust.

I spoke of someone whose heart never left,
whose tears he held back.
6 of may he tried his very best,
to smile and laugh amidst this mess.

He was hesitant in his tone,
but I could almost hear his every tear.
That day it felt like she had left him all alone;
thrown him back into the depths of misery.

Now isnt it sad that time waits for no one ?
That it doesnt linger in times of sadness,
nor does it stay in times of laughters.
We have all been so gullible.

Words of no weight.
Life of its fragility.
Promises that we all hate.
Lies, that our eyes do not see.

Have we lost it..
Have we all lost it..
Fooled by our very need.
Obligated by the slightest of things.

Will someone save you?
shout out, and try saving yourself.
Cos in this obvlivion,
the more you cry, the more you burn..

Blue

-Blue
How many times have we left it all to fate?
How many times have our promises come far too late?
We all shrug it off as if of least implications.
But the truth is, ignorance draws distances.

Your times of glitters and spices,
these moments of flight and fall.
We dreamt of forging these ties,
and to experience the greatest of flaws.

Walked through this test of faith before,
in hope that it entails memories.
Recreated these perfections not by chance,
but by the choices of deliberate insanity.

Its silhouette fades in the distance,
these lights erase its remnants.
We may not have said what should have been said,
but its genuineness ascertained.

Lets set our sails together in these shadows,
scale through these clouds of blue.
Drift pass the best and the most,
would you let it founder?

Sometimes our hearts fool the most of us.
We may let it all be of mere deceit,
or we may craft these reins of our past.
Question is, won't you fall back on this creed or let it go as if of faintest credit?

14.2.07

-14.2.07

Holding on to memories long gone.
Cannot seem to find the courage to let them go.
And through this broken heart I've worn,
tells me I still love you so.

Blinded by the very thought of you,
I choose to remember.
That very day, I gave you all that is true,
but today it seems you have thrown them in this ember.

I've come to realise so much that,
my senses can bring you freedom.
Today, this blood filled with much regret,
will cross through this path of martyrdom.

Yesterday, my joy encircled with your warmth,
hands filled with an urge to hold.
Today, our paths divided and torn,
laughters and such, not as a whole.

Today. Wrinkled or not you may be.
Bracers or denchers with those teeth.
I will stand by you.
I will stand by you.

"Fret not, cos I'll catch you the next time you fall"
Vague yet unfulfilled promises.
Im sorry that im not good enough to be your all,
that im not part of your any wishes.

14.2.07. You walked into my life,
so casually, as if it was of faintest meaning.
10.4.09. You will walk out of my life,
the very same way it has always been.

The Place

-The Place

This place, in so many times.
This place, of so much memories.
I searched and fell, on so many tries.
I loved and wept on so many melodies.

We both forget these things, most of the times.
Why did you say it, when it means nothing to you.
Made me sat through most of your lovely eyes,
just like how most lovers do.

We are alone..
In this perfect slumber.
Went through this phat and bones,
of this heart-breaking thunder.

"Stupid" and "pighead",
on this very date.
Just like how you said it would be.
14 cries, 14 laughters, in this open sea.

So many times, we misread each other.
Misunderstandings, of such we shouldn't bother.
Pictures we chose to freeze,
of the special moments of yous and mes.

Plunged into something hollow,
never felt like this before.
Of all the times you brought me sorrow.
this was something I wouldn't ask for more.

Maybe now, you've turned your back on me.
Walked away, towards a distant town.
But let me smile one last time for you..
Cos it's just so hard not to make a sound.

And maybe then.. I could slowly let it go.

Oblivion

-Oblivion

A little portrait of us,
tainted with these imperfect lines.
A flicker of light and dust,
torn and shredded into the hands of time.

Why is it that perfection is often flawed?
Has it fade ?
Has this familiarity distanced?
Tired as I am, I can no longer wait.

Run should you feel like it.
Fly away if you feel like it.
Laugh as you feel like it.
Shatter when you feel like it.

It doesnt matter no more.
I have been stoned.
I have fallen to the core.
It has been 2 years alone.

If I cannot salvage this moment,
then I'll just leave it to fate.
As I'm not strong enough against this demon -
a faint smile on my face I'll fake.

You can run away now,
run away with that huge laughter you got.
give the next prince charming your crown,
and leave this pillar of strength to rot.

I am no one.
I will disappear from you.
For all along I have been almost negligent,
to the thoughts and likes of you.

Inexplicable Sadness

-Inexplicable Sadness

The clock strikes a year from now.
It's footsteps. ticked alone.
Alone again it seems that it hurts somehow.
And then the constant ringing of this familiar tone.

Could never quite figured what it meant.
The roses. the cakes.. the heart.
and that.. warmth.. ringed around my hand...
why has it that fate did us part?

Why has it that this path has been laid out before?
So perfectly done. as if we were powerless.
and that this page mercilessly torn,
would at the very least be deciphered.

Sanity grips me no longer.
empty-handed. ill take u across.
you're no longer my girl.
you're no longer my girl.

Fret not cos this time I wont be taking you back.
Cos it was so hard just to let you go.
tossed away in the dark,
I guess it's time for me to lay low.

Unspoken Words

-Unspoken words

And there she goes again,
living life as happy as she could be.
As if those times in shine and rain,
were but of mere absurdity.

The only girl I ever loved and hate,
and yet the biggest of quarrels and misunderstandings.
Just so many words left unsaid,
so many times.. so many things.

Wont you come back?
I thought I heard her say.
But to remember was what she lack,
and that was what I was truely afraid.

Now she's gone, far away.
I know she aint ever gonna come back.
But there are just so many things left for me to say.
Anything, to just keep us intact.

And while this whistling wind would call out,
I'll be silently by your side to wish you well.
Cast away those smiles we talked about.
Bring me back into the depths of hell..

For it may only be temporary to you,
but it sticks to me for eternity.
This time I may be the fool,
to cheer and joy for your eyes to see.

But the real fool is you.
You live your life forgetting the bumps and hurdles.
One day they will all fall on you.
This day. These ties. This love.