14.2.07

-14.2.07

Holding on to memories long gone.
Cannot seem to find the courage to let them go.
And through this broken heart I've worn,
tells me I still love you so.

Blinded by the very thought of you,
I choose to remember.
That very day, I gave you all that is true,
but today it seems you have thrown them in this ember.

I've come to realise so much that,
my senses can bring you freedom.
Today, this blood filled with much regret,
will cross through this path of martyrdom.

Yesterday, my joy encircled with your warmth,
hands filled with an urge to hold.
Today, our paths divided and torn,
laughters and such, not as a whole.

Today. Wrinkled or not you may be.
Bracers or denchers with those teeth.
I will stand by you.
I will stand by you.

"Fret not, cos I'll catch you the next time you fall"
Vague yet unfulfilled promises.
Im sorry that im not good enough to be your all,
that im not part of your any wishes.

14.2.07. You walked into my life,
so casually, as if it was of faintest meaning.
10.4.09. You will walk out of my life,
the very same way it has always been.

The Place

-The Place

This place, in so many times.
This place, of so much memories.
I searched and fell, on so many tries.
I loved and wept on so many melodies.

We both forget these things, most of the times.
Why did you say it, when it means nothing to you.
Made me sat through most of your lovely eyes,
just like how most lovers do.

We are alone..
In this perfect slumber.
Went through this phat and bones,
of this heart-breaking thunder.

"Stupid" and "pighead",
on this very date.
Just like how you said it would be.
14 cries, 14 laughters, in this open sea.

So many times, we misread each other.
Misunderstandings, of such we shouldn't bother.
Pictures we chose to freeze,
of the special moments of yous and mes.

Plunged into something hollow,
never felt like this before.
Of all the times you brought me sorrow.
this was something I wouldn't ask for more.

Maybe now, you've turned your back on me.
Walked away, towards a distant town.
But let me smile one last time for you..
Cos it's just so hard not to make a sound.

And maybe then.. I could slowly let it go.

Oblivion

-Oblivion

A little portrait of us,
tainted with these imperfect lines.
A flicker of light and dust,
torn and shredded into the hands of time.

Why is it that perfection is often flawed?
Has it fade ?
Has this familiarity distanced?
Tired as I am, I can no longer wait.

Run should you feel like it.
Fly away if you feel like it.
Laugh as you feel like it.
Shatter when you feel like it.

It doesnt matter no more.
I have been stoned.
I have fallen to the core.
It has been 2 years alone.

If I cannot salvage this moment,
then I'll just leave it to fate.
As I'm not strong enough against this demon -
a faint smile on my face I'll fake.

You can run away now,
run away with that huge laughter you got.
give the next prince charming your crown,
and leave this pillar of strength to rot.

I am no one.
I will disappear from you.
For all along I have been almost negligent,
to the thoughts and likes of you.

Inexplicable Sadness

-Inexplicable Sadness

The clock strikes a year from now.
It's footsteps. ticked alone.
Alone again it seems that it hurts somehow.
And then the constant ringing of this familiar tone.

Could never quite figured what it meant.
The roses. the cakes.. the heart.
and that.. warmth.. ringed around my hand...
why has it that fate did us part?

Why has it that this path has been laid out before?
So perfectly done. as if we were powerless.
and that this page mercilessly torn,
would at the very least be deciphered.

Sanity grips me no longer.
empty-handed. ill take u across.
you're no longer my girl.
you're no longer my girl.

Fret not cos this time I wont be taking you back.
Cos it was so hard just to let you go.
tossed away in the dark,
I guess it's time for me to lay low.

Unspoken Words

-Unspoken words

And there she goes again,
living life as happy as she could be.
As if those times in shine and rain,
were but of mere absurdity.

The only girl I ever loved and hate,
and yet the biggest of quarrels and misunderstandings.
Just so many words left unsaid,
so many times.. so many things.

Wont you come back?
I thought I heard her say.
But to remember was what she lack,
and that was what I was truely afraid.

Now she's gone, far away.
I know she aint ever gonna come back.
But there are just so many things left for me to say.
Anything, to just keep us intact.

And while this whistling wind would call out,
I'll be silently by your side to wish you well.
Cast away those smiles we talked about.
Bring me back into the depths of hell..

For it may only be temporary to you,
but it sticks to me for eternity.
This time I may be the fool,
to cheer and joy for your eyes to see.

But the real fool is you.
You live your life forgetting the bumps and hurdles.
One day they will all fall on you.
This day. These ties. This love.